It’s October. I generally love October; everything smells like apples and cinnamon and huckleberries and tea, and things turn orange and lovely. (November however, with its grey dampness and Seattle monsoon, not so much.) We went to the Granite Mountain Lookout on Sunday, and the Autumn colors were just amazing.
To be completely honest, I’m really struggling at the moment. Knowing I have these trips to look forward to is the only thing that gets me through the week. It’s amazing that I can be so completely happy and carefree in the mountains and so utterly depressed at home. At least I can look back to last winter (my last bout of depression) and realize that I’m better off this time around. Now at least I have this one great thing that I am really passionate about. The low points are easier to handle when you have a high point to look forward to.
Anyway, blah blah blah. I’m trying to find lots of little things to do to keep me occupied until I am able to make bigger changes. I want to go back to school, but I am unable to on the visa I have now. Hopefully that will change soon. I need to make some sort of big, proactive change.
As I was writing that, I managed to spill a whole cup of tea down my shirt. Awesome. I’ll probably write and whine more later, but I have to go wash this thing.