Just like last February, I’m going through the winter blues. Bah. I’m having trouble sleeping, I wake up with no energy at all, and then get frustrated because there are so many changes I want to make in my life but it’s so overwhelming that I don’t know where to start. I know I am being too hard on myself and some of the things I am disappointed with are way beyond my control.
For now I’m staying focused on training for various mountain adventures we will hopefully be able to go on this year. This involves huffing and puffing up steep hills with a 30-50 lb pack on my back, and more cardio in the gym. I’m learning to enjoy running. I feel like mountains and exercise are the only things that are keeping me sane right now. Maybe we’ll have to consider a sunny vacation this spring after all, if we can afford it. It certainly helped last year.
On Tuesday we joined Mark and some of his colleagues for a Dawn Patrol to Rattlesnake Ledge. In order to see the sunrise, we had to get up at 4:30 AM, drive to North Bend and hike up in the dark – but it’s always worth it. Even when I have to do it on less than two hours of sleep.
Next week we’re going to try to get up early (sleep or no sleep) to meet Carlos at the gym before work instead of doing it at night. It’s going to be absolutely brutal those first days but I’m hoping it will eventually help my sleeping habits and energy level. Now that I’ve outed our plans here, hopefully I’ll feel like I have to do it.
I know it’s a cliché , but the serenity prayer feels very appropriate these days.
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
If that fails there’s always Serenity Now…