The last time I picked a One Little Word for the year was in 2013. My word was present. I wasn’t really scrapbooking back then, so I didn’t participate in the community surrounding One Little Word, but I did manage to focus on that word throughout the year, and it actually ended up changing the way I see the world.
Focusing on the present allowed me to fully notice and appreciate all those little beautiful moments that happen throughout the day and that make up a good life. The afternoon sun filtered through the trees. The smell of onions caramelizing in the pan. Sitting down to drink a perfect cup of coffee. Having a laughing fit with JK over something silly. Finding happiness in all those little instagramish moments made me feel happier overall than I had in…forever.
I used to think that happiness was a constant state of being and that it was probably unattainable for me, but I’ve learned that no one is happy all the damn time. But happy people are generally content in their lives, focus on the positive, and find happiness in the little things. I tend to have a black or white, either/or view of the world in general (I’m totally working on that), assuming that a person is either happy or not happy. That is so, so wrong, and 2013 was the perfect time for me to learn that lesson. I was going through fertility treatments, getting the double blow of sad, hopeless feelings and out-of-whack hormones, but I still think of 2013 as one of the happiest years of my life. There were just so many good moments throughout that year, and for the first time I was able to really live in those moments instead of dwelling on the past (there was obviously still some worrying about the future, given the whole infertility treatment thing, but still).
Fast-forward to 2016, and I’m ready for another word. The one that immediately came to mind is grow. I feel like I have grown a lot since becoming a mother – I’m learning how to be less self-centered (this is an ongoing education, especially on these 30-minute nap days *insert frustrated emoji here*), and how to put things into perspective, which makes some of the things that used to seem huge and scary to me look a little less intimidating. But there’s a lot of room to grow, a lot of potential that remains untapped. I feel like I’m ready to step outside of my comfort zone a little bit. I’m going to be doing some things that are really hard for me, but if there’s anything I’ve learned over the last couple of years, it’s that YES I can do hard things.
First on that list of hard things? I, a massive introvert who is terrified by anything resembling public speaking and even loathes talking on the phone, said yes to be on a podcast! My natural inclination was to run screaming from that proposition, but I couldn’t say no to my favorite Scrap Gals. You can listen to the episode here (or in your podcast app) – I haven’t listened to it myself, because that would be horrifying, but JK listened to it and claims I didn’t embarrass myself too much (he probably just loved the comments that were made about him).
The second thing? Putting myself out there and applying for a spot on Ali Edwards‘ Creative Team – and I got it! I’m still amazed. Ali has been my scrapbooking guru for so long, so this is a huge honor for me.
There are much bigger challenges ahead though, and I’ll be documenting my progress and my successes (and very likely some failures) in my One Little Word album as the year goes on. There are some things I am really, really looking forward to, and some things that terrify me so much that my stomach is in knots just thinking about them. But that’s how you grow, right?